A lot less emotionally broken today, just physically broken.
I didn’t sleep last night because every time I fell asleep I’d wake up and have to adjust myself, because there was a sharp pain in my back.
Pulled muscles suck.

So emotionally broken.
Im tired of feeling so useless. How am I so much weaker than everyone else.

I fucked up my back again. Badly. Anytime I start to feel stronger I end up back in bed in pain.
It doesn’t help that my best friend came with me to my personal trainer session and out shined me in every way possible.

Im just super super upset right now.

Today was productive.
Gym, protein, beach, back to the gym again, and more protein.

Im very very burnt D:

do you remember the first time you were called annoying?
how your breath stopped short in your chest
the way the light drained from your eyes, though you knew your cheeks were ablaze
the way your throat tightened as you tried to form an argument that got lost on your tongue.
your eyes never left the floor that day.
you were 13.

you’re 20 now, and i still see the light fade from your eyes when you talk about your interests for “too long,”
apologies littering every other sentence,
words trailing off a cliff you haven’t jumped from in 7 years.
i could listen to you forever, though i know speaking for more than 3 uninterrupted minutes makes you anxious.
all i want you to know is that you deserve to be heard
for 3 minutes
for 10 minutes
for 2 hours

there will be people who cannot handle your grace, your beauty, your wisdom, your heart;
mostly because they can’t handle their own.

but you will never be
and have never been
“too much.”



Dash is dead, need more people to follow :)